Author Archive Diania

ByDiania

What’s On My Heart

I simply want to sit down and tell you everything in my life is wonderful, but to do that would be a lie. I feel as tho I am going thru transitions that scare me, ones I can’t control and am not even sure I want to try.

Being the oldest of our four writers you would think I would have a little more insight on how to handle life. But, like everyone else, I stand back fighting depression and decisions that weigh heavy on my heart every day. I know my God won’t put on me more then I can handle, but where exactly is that point, when does one break, or is it even an option?

A couple weeks ago I was talking with an old friend who had a mental break down and had been in the hospital. She seemed a little reluctant to tell me she had a nervous breakdown. I could see the embarrassment in her eyes. Then I started to tell her that a nervous break down is actually just a break thru, and now she could breathe a lot easier because God has lifted the burden and pain from her. I watched as her eyes began to shine, and as she set there for a while I could see her thinking. A few minutes later she began to thank me and said that was a wonderful way to look at it. She seemed to be relieved as I explained to her that she would be able to go on now and leave those burdens completely behind her. When I left her I knew God put me there for a reason. His child was hurting and I left knowing He had used me to help her heal…

So in the mean time I can’t help but wonder just where I will be and who God may use to help me thru what ever it is that holds me from surrendering and breaking thru myself. After all, going thru means I gotta come out on the other end. Your prayers are most welcome..

Love,

ByDiania

No Time For Sissies!

Lets start this by saying this week has been one whirlwind of events. The sickness in our church has taken a toll on me. Saying I have been discouraged is an understatement. So I decided it was time to get specific with my prayer, this was no time for sissy prayers.

I let God in on what my heart has been feeling, stating to him that I need to see the hand of God move. After months of praying up against brick walls and seeing nothing happen , it was time for hitting the knees and telling Him I need more. One can only endure so much, and that was where I was.

I don’t believe I was alone in my feelings. For the last couple years we have seen more sickness, the most some have endured in a lifetime. To say the least we have been attacked by the enemy, and it was time to take back what he has stolen from us. I can definitely say when Dean was, frustration filled me to the core. Standing back with sissy prayers was not going to be acceptable. What we needed was a team of serious prayer warriors standing in the gap for a brother in Christ, and that’s exactly what we got.

I love the living testimony of people walking by seeing where we put our trust. In our Lord and savior, the only true physician who could heal beyond what any man could do. I pray those people know where real healings come from.

I never doubt what my God can do, I may get discouraged but He is still in the healing business, and that is what I stand on. Promises of a God that cannot lie, and will not lie. I know for a fact that Dean is on his way to a full recovery. Tonite I sat in his chair and asked God to restore him back to a wholeness of wellness. In the name of Jesus I prayed for every illness Dean has, from allergies to back pain. Get ready Dean your gonna be better then ever, like I said,

You will arise and go forth, in the name of the Lord of host, for he has conquered every foe by his name, by his name, I will declare he is the Lord I will trust and not be afraid I will arise and go forth by his name…………….

I put my faith in God, he came thru once again. Amen……………..I love you Lord, and again I give you the praise…..

 

Originally written by Diania on April 14th, 2011… In reference to Angie’s Dad, Dean… You can read more about the situation we were all in here.

ByDiania

To My Daddy, From Lil Adam

I was walking round in heaven and I just could not believe,
God looked at you and mommy and said a son you shall conceive.
He will make you happy he will bring you so much joy,
I’m sending you my very best my favorite little boy.

Please don’t take it lightly there’s lot’s of work to do,
For with my little boy comes lot’s of work for you.
You will teach him wisdom and how to be a man,
But while he still is growing you’ll need to hold his hand.

He’s gonna need your patience
And words that are very kind.
‘Cause anything you say,
Will stay upon his mind.

And as he grows away from you,
To make it on his own,
To everyone that he meets,
He’ll make his daddy known.

He’ll look up to his daddy,
A hero you will be.
And in all of your teaching,
I hope you’ll mention Me.

For without my hand to guide you,
Your walking all alone.
So take good care of him,
In a loving home.

Yes these are the words in heaven
I heard Jesus say,
And that’s why I can tell you
How much I love you and HAPPY FATHERS DAY.

 

Originally written by Diania on June 4th, 2010 for her Son, Adam, and Grandson, Little Adam

ByDiania

Jars Of Dreams

Ever have a dream you know you will never live? A dream just placed in a jar with all the other dreams that are unreachable? I’m not talking about something you may want in life, but know it’s unattainable… Most dreams are that way anyway. But one so close. So real. That’s the dream I’m speaking of.

What stands in our way of making that dream come to life? Is it fear, failure, or just plain negligence on our part for not reaching out hard enough to make that dream come true? Your dream could just be a place or someone you want and know is impossible to have. You still know deep down inside it’s never going to be. There’s a hidden pain that stays with that dream that only you and God knows. And next to it is sorrow for him having to tell you it’s untouchable. If this was just a dream from sleeping you could just wake yourself up, shake it off, go on with life, and face reality again.

Someone asked recently:

“What has God done for you lately?”

God has done a lot for me, so I feel selfish knowing I have dreams that will never be attained. But to lie and say I don’t want those dreams would be lying to my heart and to God.

And lately? I have beat myself up enough, so deep inside, in my heart anyway. I’m going to be honest with him and myself. If nothing is hidden from him then how can I expect him not to know my every thought and dream?

Who knows? Maybe someday God will line everything up and make those dreams reachable. Until then, I will keep them between him and myself, hidden right here in my heart. Untouchable by anyone else. It’s like our own little secret, between the two of us.

Love,

Originally written by Diania on June 23, 2010

ByDiania

Becky: My Daughter, My Joy

Dear Becky,

I was going to write you a poem to tell you how proud i am of you, but i thought you deserved better. From the day you were born you have been my joy, I could not be more proud of you than I am today; To see the work that God has done in you and how he has blessed your life makes me so proud to call you my daughter. I can sit back today and tell you how much I love my nieces but when God gave me a daughter he gave me his very best. There is nothing about you that I would change. From the first time I held you in my arms you had stolen my heart, and as I sit here today I can honestly say you still hold it in your hands. I could pray for God to send you home but then I would only be interfering with His plan for your life, and that is not something I want to hinder. Instead I will choose to sit back and watch  the work in your life unfold. Your obedience to God’s word will always keep you blessed. I use to worry about you but I know God has put His angels in charge over you. I know when I close my eyes at night that His eyes are on you and you are going to be just fine.I want you to know that the distance between us will never change how much I love you and how proud I am of you. Nothing you do or accomplish goes unnoticed. My eyes are still on you just like they were when you were first born.and they still look at you with amazement. I AM ALWAYS IN AWE OF WHAT GOD MAY HAVE PLANNED FOR YOU.  Sometimes I think you are the only thing i did right in my life, so what ever it is you are doing please don’t stop. Remember where God has pulled you from and build on that.  And always remember that you are my daughter, my joy and I wouldn’t change that for anything in the world!

Love you forever

Your Mother

Originally written by Diania on September 17, 2010

ByDiania

Q & A With Diania: If you could spend a day in someone else’s shoes, whose would they be and why?

Wow good question, always wanted to answer this one any way, so here it goes:

Anyone’s shoes? How about the sandals that Jesus wore? Can you imagine traveling across a hot desert in a pair of sandals? Can you imagine walking just one mile that Jesus walked? I can close my eyes and picture walking side by side with Jesus but can’t ever imagine walking or filling his shoes.


Those are the shoes that should be in some famous hall of fame, but someone probably just tossed them by the wayside. Those shoes are the ones that should of been bronzed and put on momma’s dresser. To walk in them I could never do. I could never take the pain He took for me, but I can still walk by His side. I can hold the hand of the man that holds my heart. I can shout out his praises and tell him how much I love him, but more then that I can tell you what He wants me to tell you: that all he did in those old tore up sandals, He did all for you.

So what do you think? Still need a pair of shoes to fill? Try just walking next to the one who filled the sandals that cant be filled.

Love,

Originally written by Diania on May 25, 2010

ByDiania

Young Love

Young Love
By: Diania Comstock
July, 1986

A boy and a girl ran off to wed
They didn’t expect what lied ahead
Happy and excited, though only sixteen
They had no idea what marriage could mean

A few months later, things started to change
The girl sat at home and the boy acted strange
Days went by when he wasn’t around
She began to wonder if it was new love he had found

The girl decided it’s time to get out
Then she learned what families are about
Soon she won’t be home all alone
In a few months, she’ll bring a new member home

She told the boy, she thought he’d be glad
He just started screaming, she knew he was mad
She won’t give up now, she decided to stay
If it was to work, she’d find a way

Times were hard and money was tight
But the girl was strong, she knew she was right
Months went by, she started to show
And now even Daddy was starting to glow

All he talked about was having a son
And he wanted to prove it to everyone
A year has passed since the new baby came
But this one didn’t get daddy’s name

Still running around and out having fun
This time she decided, we are done
She left him a letter with his ring beside it
It’s over this time, I’m not going to hide it

She thought of her mother, how she’d like to go home
But mother had told her you’re now on your own
Her friends couldn’t help her, they had their own life
And now she was sorry she became a wife

What would she do and where would she go
Just like before, she was starting to show
Now a mommy and still very young
She started to realize what she had done

Tears started falling, she tried not to cry
She thought of the boy, how could he lie
She went back home and found her man
There he sit with the ring in his hand

He started to kiss her, he thought she was gone
He told her he loved her and where she belonged
With life back in order and a home full of joy
The family will welcome their new little boy

Temptation and trust must fill the heart
Without the two, they’ll be torn apart
Love is something that needs to grow
Both husband and wife play a big role

 

ByDiania

Memory Bouquet

It’s the little memories
That make a bouquet
The refreshing fragrance
You think of each day

The one’s that remind you
Of how you’ve been blessed
Can simply helps you forget
All the rest

A smile that comes
From out of nowhere
Is simply a gift
That God chose to share

A picture of yesterday
A thought of the past
Is now a memory
That will forever last

Thoughts of tomorrow
will soon be long gone
a memory will be all
that’s carries on

So hold onto all
life has to give
just a take a deep
breath and go out and live

Take each memory
you make everyday
share with someone
and make a memory bouquet

ByDiania

Empty Nest Syndrome

Unlike the rest of the wonderful ladies that I get the pleasure to blog with my children are all grown, actually thought I would enjoy the peace and quiet when my husband and I were free to do what ever we wanted. “WRONG”, depression hit like a ton of bricks, for over a year I could barely function… My daughter moved away, starting with baby steps, first to Victorville then to Bakersfield, and on to Tennessee,, now even further, they are pastoring in Illinois, I feel blessed knowing she is serving the Lord… but not being able to watch my grandchildren grow up is the hardest thing I have ever had to face… I feel my grandchildren are my greatest accomplishment……..They are truly my joy.. each child with their own personality
I would give anything to go back and spend time with my children.. knowing what I know now things would have been totally different. I would of had them in church from the moment they were born… I Try so hard to tell people how important it is if you want to raise a loving caring child then you need to teach him the love of Jesus…. It’s our job to do just that… I made so many mistakes, but by the grace of God I have let that go, I know my Lord and savior has forgiven me, and with that I can go on doing the work he has called me to do… I feel it’s so important for young mothers to know that the house work is not all that important… those dishes will be there, those unmade beds aren’t going anywhere either… So go ahead and get your hands sticky with those lil guys, your making a memory every time you do… and you can bet they love every minute of it…. Do I feel worthy to be able to be a part of this lil group, ‘NO’ but I do feel blessed, And pray for me, because I get very nervous when I think about blogging, if you have read some of the post from the other ladies then you will know why…… I’m sure God knows my desires and He has never let me down. so please bare with me.. God isn’t finished with me yet. You will find most of my post are poems… My desire is to write a book, with short stories and poems mixed, I honestly believe in my heart that the four of us ladies could write a book, It wasn’t by accident we got here, God is good and he has a plan for us. He put the four of us together for a reason, and I’m ready to find out what that reason is …. I just got to figure out how to do it all, my computer skills are not the best…. Any way I just wanted to get acquainted with you all and let you know you will be hearing more from… go wash those hands and get ready to lift them up… After all praising Jesus is all that really matters….

love,

ByDiania

My Child

While working one day, I stopped to pray
Cause things were bringing me down
As I bowed my head, thought of things I dread
I felt my knees hit the ground

As time went by, I started to cry
The Holy Spirit filled the air
He said, “My child, let go”
I felt the tears flow
And my sins I started to share

As He held my hand, He said I understand
My child, you’ve been forgiven
The weight you carry is why I tarry
And now you can go on living

There’s a reason I’m here, to dry your tear
There’s joy to restore in your heart
You’re part of my plan
I hope you understand
You have been from the start

All you go through is planned out for you
It’s a season for you to grow
I won’t walk away or let you stray
But there are things you need to know

My Word is your light, so you need to fight
Stay strong in all that you do
Never give up, just lift your cup
And know I’ll see you through

If you need to see where I might be
My child, just open your eyes
I’ve told you before that I love you more
That should come as no surprise

After all my child
What more do you need
Then a Father who gives His best
If you come to me first and seek my face
I’m sure I can handle the rest

Nothing you do can turn me away
I’m the maker of the air you breathe
Till you take your last breath
And I carry you home
I have no reason to leave

So hold on my Child, till I call you home
And remember I’m always near
There’s no reason to worry
If your prayers reach home
I assure you I’m always here

All that you’ve done I keep in my heart
You’re a treasure in Heaven above
So open your life and allow me back in
And I’ll fill your heart with love

Written by Diania Comstock on August 20th, 2011