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The Battlefield Of MY Mind

If you only knew!

Yes, I’m that person who has to fight really, really hard to not say whatever comes to my mind. My mind runs twenty-four/seven. I never know what I’m gonna be thinking of next. I scare myself sometimes.

Trying to stop my mind is easier said than done. I could dwell on 10 subjects at one time. I have a dry, sarcastic humor that some people just don’t get. I can find humor in the simplest things, even if it’s not meant to be funny or humorous.

For example, my sister and I were sitting at a funeral and they played a song that you would NEVER expect to be played. We had to FIGHT laughter so bad. We did not dare look at each other or we would have lost it. I was biting the inside of my mouth, pinching my leg, and yet, I could hold it no longer. I laughed. It’s was one of those times when you can’t stop and everyone is looking around and staring at you. Ugh…

Another instance, I’ll never forget was when my sister was sick one time and puking her guts up. I couldn’t get over the sound she made with each heave. I laughed every time she puked. I couldn’t help it and I was really trying not to be mean.

Sometimes, I’ll say something at random, not really for anyone to hear me. When someone says, “what?” or “what does that mean?”, I find myself having to explain, sometimes more than once because they don’t get it.

Don’t even get me started on church. You know when they call someone up to sing a special and they think that they are all that and a bag of chips? They start singing and your like, “wow! It doesn’t look like they would sound like that.” And their voice is uniquely different or just plain bad… I have a hard time not laughing. I don’t know why! It just bubbles on out.

When in Psalms, it said, “make a joyful noise unto the Lord,” I know that God had to know what He was getting in to.

Now, if He would help me get my thoughts under submission, and I know that it’s possible, I would be very grateful. Laughter is a great medicine to the soul, so I’m glad that I have the opportunity so often… I should be really healthy!

Be blessed and be a blessing!