Ok, I have eyes. I have a mirror. I also live with myself daily. I know that I am over weight. That’s a big DUH. In the last few months, I have successfully gained over 20 more pounds unintentionally. I don’t know how, if I did, I would stop it… What gets me, is that people look you up and down, like you don’t notice and then look at your face and smile, or look at you with disgust or pity.
Just because your over weight, fat, obese, how ever you put it, doesn’t mean that you desire to dress ugly either. I can’t stand going into a store to look at clothes that are labeled plus size, and everything you look at is shapeless and the most ugly material you’ve ever seen. One of my favorite stores is Lane Bryant, but I have pet peeves with it also. All of their models are NOT plus size!!!! They are regular, tall, big boned women. NOT PLUS SIZE. There are a few name brand stores, who are now carrying plus size clothing, you just have to pay an arm and a leg for them. (If only we could find a way to get rid of fat cells for the price instead of limbs… if only… lol)
Now that I’m on a roll, (and no, not the rolls on my stomach or back or legs, and no I didn’t say I wanted to eat a roll), it drives me insane to hear someone that is obviously skinny, call themselves fat. My little sister, Emily, whom you’ve been introduced to on this site, is barely 104 pounds soaking wet! Sometimes I just want to yell at her, “GO EAT SOMETHING!!!” I love her dearly. It’s just not fair that she got a skinny gene.
I am trying to remind myself that I am “fearfully and wonderfully made” by God and in His image. God doesn’t make no junk! (yes, I used a double negative). I can not “down” His handy work. Though I have a few suggestions… just kidding, He knows what I want changed.
All of that to say this, you’ve heard the old sayin’, don’t judge a book by it’s cover. Well, don’t judge a person by their layers of skin. You don’t know what they’ve been thru already and what has brought them to where they are. You’ve not walked a mile in my shoes or anyone else’s. I did not choose to be obese. I’m trying to change that. Be compassionate and not judgemental. I have a whole lot more to love! Now, if your a skinny minny, GO EAT SOMETHING! Be blessed!
When you have a true anointing, Satan will try EVERYTHING that he can, to stop your ministry from flowing! You are a huge threat to him. I know that he has thrown lots of things my way to shut me up. I’ve allowed him to stop my ministry so that others can do what they are called to do, without me being in the way. Not that I’m this great, awesome singer or anything, it’s just when God places a calling on you, it is without question. I have lived by the motto: “I’d rather sit back in defeat because God has not called me to compete!” Many Christians in today’s society, have turned ministry, of every kind, into a competition of sorts. That is definitely NOT God’s will. That is another reason why ‘many are called, but few are chosen.’
We are supposed to be ONE body. To work together for the salvation of souls, not to put on one man shows or performances for mans benifit. When you ‘minister’ for someone to hear you or see you, you may need to do a heart check.
I’ve had to ask God’s forgiveness for letting foolish things block His flow in me. On the other hand, I don’t want to come across uncaring or hurt others feelings. I don’t want ANYONE to feel the pain that I have endured over the past year and a half. When you are not allowing Holy Spirit to work in you, it causes pain physically, mentally, and spiritually. It caused friendships to be ruined. Unhappiness in your heart because satan has stolen your joy. Bitterness because others are getting to do YOUR hearts desire.
The Bible tells us in 2 Timothy 1:6,
“Wherefore I put thee in remembrance that thou stir up the gift of God, which is in thee by the putting on of my hands.”
Remember the gift that God has placed in your spirit. Don’t sit on it, for time is short. I am preaching to myself. I had to eat this before I could feed it to the public.
I know Who has called me and I will do my best for His benefit. My desire is to be pleasing to God and to spread His word. Be blessed and allow God to flow through you.