Faith, Hope and Love… Three words that have powerful meaning. Words that I bought written on a t-shirt. Although I do not believe in buying biblical references on clothing. (I liked the color.) God’s love should shine from within.
In life people sometimes look for signs to change their life and maybe that sign will be my t-shirt?
1 Corinthians 13 are where those words are written, one of the most used biblical verses of all time. Why? In most wedding ceremonies they are referred to as a husband and wife’s love. In reality it is the love that Christ himself gives us.
Like so many people we have loved,lost,known or continue to meet: We touch their lives and they impact ours. I have met so many men and women in the Military that struggle through conflicts of dedication and love.
Sometimes there are sides to them we almost never want to see. A lot of them like to drink because of what they have done, seen, or experienced that we can’t even imagine. I had to edit this post because I felt like instead of writing just words or my own personal thoughts, I would share my brothers story.
When I was a little kid, I always wanted to be like my older brother. He was cool and crazy and I could never understand why he wanted to sleep until 12pm when he came to visit. I loved him with all of my heart.
When he died he wrote Psalm 23
“The Lord is my shepherd;I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.”
Every time I read those words I cry. Even now to picture my brother writing them down and almost feeling his pain was just too much to handle. His heart was not fulfilled and there was no one to reach out to him grab his hands and tell him how important and loved he really was. He took his own life January 6, 1995. Since that day, I have wanted to tell him everyday that I love him. That God loves him, that no one should ever suffer so much they have to take their own life.
There are a lot of men and women who suffer from PTSD. Some military members find it dishonorable to take your own life. Yes, I agree it is not the answer. However; if God knows you, he knows what you are going to do.
Do I think it’s selfish- no, do I think my brother is in hell – no. He believed in God and needed an out and it was just too late for him. I don’t want it to be too late for the rest of you especially if you know someone who is really struggling.
I know that most of the men who have been to war refuse to grow closer to God.
It is difficult to love God when they have killed, murdered, or even martyred people innocent or not.
In the Bible there are so many references to War, and if you read Jeremiah, Kings, and Samuel you will know that God wanted the bad to be gone. The filth to be taken away from the world. He still does, and yet, there are a lot of bad things that happen to good people. It is not the person it is just the sin, yes the sin of the world.
God knows what you have done before you do it, He places us where He wants us, we experience things that He knows we will experience.
People die when you live, there will never be an answer to these questions until you are at the right hand.
When you are with Jesus and He looks upon you how will you feel? Do you think Jesus hung out with people who were all good? No, he was around prostitutes, murders, adulterers, thieves, homosexuals and the list goes on.
He loves you and He loves me. He knows what you want and He knows what you need. He has seen your struggles, strife and afflictions.
Even if you are the “best” christian you can get divorced, you can go to jail, you can even succumb to having impure thoughts.
I feel like though we have all sinned and some have gone through much worse then I that no matter what you have done, if you ask for his forgiveness with a whole heart you are forgiven.
Once you release yourself and stop trying to fight the world and yourself that you will find what you have always been looking for. LOVE
For those men and women in the military, past or present whom, I love and adore, who keep me free in writing what I want, loving God and fighting so that the rest of us don’t:
If any of you are struggling with what you have done, remember what Jesus Christ did for you. He was beaten, His flesh torn away from His body, a crown of thorns impaled into His head, hands and feet nailed. Above all a promise He kept and through the scriptures He foresaw what his life was for- US.
There is not a right or a wrong scenario there is not.. well maybe it happened– NO it happened.
It happened so that we may find what we all long for and that is Christ. He loves you so much and knew who you were before you were even born.
Why not get to know the man who loves you? Why be afraid of what you have done? Even if you do sin again, He will still love you.
Life is too short to waste it on the “what ifs,” in life- make it happen. Although you will never forget you can always remember where it lead you and what type of person you have become.
Faith, hope and Love are all you need.. He loved you first.
God Bless, Merry Christmas – Thank you Vets, and Active Duty Military, for your love and devotion to this country.