Insecurity is something that I have dealt with all of my life.
Insecurity: not confident or sure : uncertain or : not adequately guarded or sustained : unsafe
I have to fake an air of confidence when I am around others, when in actuality, I am panicking on the inside. I really do not like being around a lot of people. Anxiety creeps in. I feel as if everyone is looking at me and judging me. Like the “elephant” in the room… A lot of it has to do with my weight.
“I am woman! See my rolls!… er.. I mean, Hear me roar!”
I don’t like attention. It’s just too weird…
Another part of insecurity involves friendship. When you are insecure, you have a hard time making friends because your heart is so guarded. I am afraid of being hurt by someone. I’ve been hurt many times before and it’s not a good feeling. Not something that you are ready to jump right back into.
I know that I am not the only one who deals with this. I can’t help but to remember the segments on Saturday Night Live, from when I was younger:
“I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and doggone it, people like me.”-Daily Affirmations with Stuart Smalley