Sleep is something that is very precious to the beholder.
Since having a hysterectomy in March of 2012, I have found that I am spending most of my life awake. Sleeping hours are few and far between. I have learned, for the most part, to make peace with the darkest hours… literally.
I guess you never stop watching the clock and counting down each hour that you have left until the alarm goes off. First, I watch midnight come and go. Then 1 a.m., 2 a.m., and so on. As I type this blog, it is after 4 in the morning. The alarm goes off at 6 for the kids to get ready for school and David to get ready for work.
Psalms 127:2 says, “It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep.” I really need to get back to claiming this verse for myself. My body can not keep up with the everyday wears and tears of life. I get sleepy while I am driving or just doing everyday things. Insomnia is a horrible thing for anyone to have, especially if you are a mother. I am very irritable with the kids and have found myself getting snappy with others, all because I am exhausted. Keeping up with everyday life is nearly impossible and then you add the “super mom” duties on top of that, and you get a walking Zombie. I have found myself driving down the road to only realize that I didn’t know how I had gotten that far. I didn’t remember driving those miles and I sometimes have to stop and get my focus back on, just to remember where I was going in the first place.
Psalms 4:8 says, “I will both lay my down in peace, and sleep: for Thou, Lord, only makest me dwell in safety.”
I know that God has given me peace of mind, now I just need that rest and sleep to go with it. I know many women who suffer from Insomnia and know first hand how serious of an issue it can be.
So, as you snuggle up in your bed and await your peaceful slumber, be mindful and prayerful for those of us who have learned to tell time by the setting of the moon… Sweet dreams.