There’s a woman that goes to my church and she is as sweet as she can be. Every time she sees me she makes a point to say hello and hug me or at least smile. She is growing as Christian and still getting to know her place in the Lord. The other night after service, she said to me, “You’re going to think this is strange, but I always watch you. You may have noticed me looking at you, but I look at you and see that you are everything I wish I could’ve been. I really look up to you.”
My reactions? Number one, I told her she can still be everything she wants to be! Number two, I told her how much what she said meant to me. I never would have dreamed that my life meant that much to someone else. Number three, I started to question my every move! Until she told me that, I had no idea that was how she felt. I had no idea that she looked up to me. I began to think to myself, “I’m just little old me. Why in the world would she want to watch me as an example. I’m not anything special. I’m not perfect. I make mistakes.” Then my thinking turned into panicking. “I make mistakes!!! She’s watching me and I make mistakes! I’m not perfect!! What if I lead her astray?? What if I don’t do her justice?!”
Our conversation has been in my mind all week. I’ve always known that I should set an example because the world is watching, the little ones are watching, etc., but when someone came to me and told me that personally, it became real. I want to be the best example I can possibly be. I want to be the ultimate reflection of Jesus. If people watch me, but only see me, then I’m doing a horrible job. However, if they watch me and see the light and love of Jesus, then I’m on the right track.
Oh, I definitely have my moments, and the devil loves it whenever I fail. That’s what he wants. It’s the desire of the enemy to knock us down and keep us there. Yet, if we have Jesus within us, it’s easier to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and get back in the race He has called us to run. Even when you’re oblivious to it like I was, people everywhere are watching. The thing is, there are two different kinds of people. There are the ones who are watching and waiting for you to fall, so they can say, “I told you so,” especially if you stay down. Then there are the ones who see you fall and are standing there waiting to help you back up, saying, “I knew you could make it!” And that latter group is far more important.
Always be aware of everything you do or say (Hey, I’m preaching to myself here!) because whether it’s little eyes or someone that’s older wanting a second chance, someone is always watching.